Lost youthful beans
Lost youthful beans
Firm to regard as him proud by father before this, praise on every people, so long as he talk son to be firm will spirit hundredfold to rejuvenate, have a radiant face. But this time he is angry, angry completely, in front of his son is firm, first thunderclap heavy to it takes place to be full of angry ‘ He has not worn the cap) ,Get angry like mountain torrents mountain violent cruel fierce tiger go down the hill flood dragon stir sea topple the mountains and overturn the seas dying posture of dying that touching promptly irresistible to meet suddenly, he has used up the lifelong strength and howled like male lion, hit and pat the desk exerting all one’s effort, a teacup is because of the continuous jump under the circumstances that his strong rhythmical bat is hit “ Jingle ” Lose it on the ground, tear to shreds immediately utterly crushedly.
Cause firm in at yesterday previous times of dance hall, what ” old world of culture ” was that called Place,and he not insisting on last ” hooligan worlds old ” ,He thinks that is that one shelters evil people and countenances evil practices in the dirty place where fly’s mosquito grows thickly. Having gone once at his two mao of the next door last time, been known by him, the dog reprimanded” hooligan’s large world ” shamelessly and obscenely ruthlessly capturing the mouse ,This action is undoubtedly a kind of resistance of his, a kind of challenge, have to make his outrage fill out, can’t make he fire emit loftily or bottomlessly, he does not hope one’s own son ” degenerates ” Become such. He stand by desk, blue vein finish, reveal, like blood, one fierce look to wipe out people eyes, howling like hitting the war drum and hitting pitiful desk tsunami the samely: “Is that the place where you go? Grow up, wing getting hard, refuse to obey I no matter, tell you, I do not give you money for one day, you don’t want to study again “
This point is firm and clear, because more than 80% of economy of his family stems from this cash cow father, so he behaves very docily at this moment, do not strive not to distinguish a pair of posture of allowing oneself to be trampled upon and manipulating with the person without quarrelling, lie in bed, seem to be reading a book, his father’s ” art that chiding ” with father that seem : “Where is that, do you know? That is ‘ hooligan’s large world, ‘ the local ruffian of the hooligan goes there, you run to do something, the place which men and women embrace and embrace, you go to look, study, well, have made me extremely angry! “
He just shouts and just scolds, he has not dared to raise a hand to hit his son, he thinks, son’s stature was originally taller and bigger than oneself, and has been there again “ Hooligan’s large world “ That big dye vat, he thinks that can both dry out for some things of person there, including his son, heard of a ” hooligan ” last time Move the knife in the dance hall, say it is for fighting for a dancing partner, shameless and shameless, since someone dares to move the knife there, then it seems to be natural and natural and possible that the son strikes violently to oneself.
Firm to move yet, provoke eyelid have a look his father often. In his memory, this is father’s second time to get angry in front of him. Junior Two period test one door fail, the father get angry in him for the first time. Vertical eyes, frighten he plucked instrument plucked instrument take place, mix heart take place timid and in a trance. And today, strange, he has not a bit of frightened psychology at all, thinks it is drawn by an unsurpassed scene and surface that father faces oneself like this.
Perhaps has really grown up by oneself. He thinks so, the ones that seem to flood like father the Yellow River roar.
Scold enough, all can words of the scolding have been called. It is hard to scold, it seems that whole body bone will all fall apart, it is probably that the son has no sound in half a day too, it is tasteless very to be alone sets of play sing too, he the next sentence: Do not ” make a change for me, don’t want to study again ” Having gone out, the door is almost brought broken, the lime powder drops a great storey, earthshaking.
Firm to smile, the cold war won the victory at last. He thinks all the time that has no fault oneself, does not have fault of a fine long hair of half point. Live for 18 years in this world too in any case oneself, the household has already done some vigorous undertakings at 18 years old, does not Lin Biao become an all-powerful battlefield teacher at 18 years old? And oneself, well, gate of province this step out either, what impressive man’s Chinese of 2.33 meters is called. The spring breeze of the reform blew outside for this small county town “ The ocean ” The world, he is cherishing a kind of psychology of hunting for novelty to step in. He knows he does not dance completely, but has bought a dance coupon, 3, women ticket needs only 2, mother, the manners and morals of the time change now, is lady’s preferential treatment everywhere. He only wants to have a taste of the atmosphere seen in the film, it is not for being amazing.
He has chosen a desk by the angle and sat down, the person studying in the film quite wants a cup of coffee on a show, lick, hard, astringent and astringent, he thought he has been fooled. And then watch to men and women singing merrily and dancing gracefully in that dance floor under the green shadow of the red light. He dressed very honourably that day, also hit a scarlet tie for the first time, though feel very awkward. Sweep at the face at his body when at the varicoloured neon light rich in variety, like one eyes that spy upon, make him it feels to be uneasy all over body all over. At this moment, waft come on a fairy maiden in being dim, no, in fact it is a girl, inviting him to dance a dance smiling, he is frightened, can not busy with saying, then that girl sits down, talk to him long half an hour, this have, grow, can talk with girl so long for the first time in him, have proved that there are enough courage and courage oneself. He has also found a question, is the time when the light is swept over each time, she is staring at oneself. She tells him. She is a plum, 17 years old, graduate from junior middle school. The special mission of passing the examination costs two fen, has not studied. There is no work to do to stay at home, then gone to Guangzhou to hit the workers of two months, because the producer has dismissed and just come back. Heard later “ Large world of culture “ Recruit a waiter. She did in the test and has been admitted to. That’s all, so firm as to remember, anyway he knows plums like this.
Firm to study all the same, but he does not want to make a change. Because he thinks all the time that has no fault oneself. Since there is no fault, can change? Every correct to make into not wrong all over the world. Besides, he knows father that one that said is a words said in a fit of rage, his hope is still placed on oneself on one’s body, does not want, how could he be so anxious?
It is a good student to be firm, everybody generally acknowledges him in this way. The achievement is good, wear ” Qian ” ,Competent, write fairly good article all alone still, combine with he students’ union president former so, so the teachers and students of the whole school were familiar with this name very much, popularity except that the headmaster seems to count him soon. Because firm novel prose issue award of obtaining at newspapers and periodicals often, make a group of male and female students hot on the trail of fetching ” pass ” always ,And often there are several girls among them the drinker’s heart is not in the cup, and mind it in its talent. What people observing it firm, but he always keeps the clean body being regarded for oneself, let down the sweet-smelling hearts of Iraq. The firm popularity relation is extremely good too, no matter teacher’s classmates, the daughters of boys learn, one may well say that gains advantage from both sides, can draw back, share and comb, often using oneself and footing a bill has classmates who are ” conscientious ” Ground is the chewing gum of ice cream “ Gong Chao ” Come up, this does not certainly prove the firm rough way pigeonholes people unreasonable and horizontally with the duty, just prove his popularity is extremely good. So, no matter in the school, or in the class, he speaks always what is said carries weight, hundreds respond to a single call, next notice come piece mobilize unexpectedly than halo yet, form master of headmaster, sometimes, supernatural.
Six of one day have already been finished, the last should be the extracurricular activities. Because will hold the class and collect the volleyball match on people next week, head, as class one is firm have to worry about, he and sports committee member are busy with training. Hitting hard, a classmate jumps to shout:
“Firm, the telephone! “
The telephone is that the plum was hung over. Firm feel very strange, how could she know one’s own school? Where did she pry into to from?
“Why are you the school knowing me? “
“Oh, you told me, do I still know your class? “
God! God! What did I say on earth that day? Firm and a bit surprised, must not utter a word half on the day.
“Hello, forgetful spirit, what’s the matter? ” Telephone come plum spoil sweet sound, firm from draw back in being stunned, “it will be Saturday tomorrow, the afternoon. “
Plum make telephone, make firm to refuse to say yes or no, know what’s the matter.
If lesson finish, lesson is firm to keep a promise, leave, really in ” loud world ” plum Wait for him at the gate.
“What’s the matter? ” He asks, come straight to the point.
” invite you to dinner, ” She answers, includes without revealing.
Come to ” the full garden of spring ” The wineshop, the plum has called four cold dishes and a stove and two bottles of Champagne. Plum take up chopsticks, invite firm to have a meal, firm to say you tell me what thing I take. The plum has chuckled, smile at firmly the heart sends the void directly.
“It seems you are still very interesting, OK, tell you, it is that I pay out wages to ask you for the first time, this has been me the first time of all one’s life with the money that one’s own work own sweat dragged for, should congratulate, “
“Then invite me to be second of? “
“Guess. “
Can not ” guess “ ,Straightforward.
” my birthday of today, reach the age of 17 ” ,A layer of blush floods on the face in the plum, ” I did not make friends in the past, it is a friend to run into you ” .
” oh, the two blessings have descended upon the house, ” Firm and a bit excited, he treat plum this copy openheartedly excited, stand up, pour a cup of Champagne fully, pass plums.
” happy birthday to you, may you work smoothly “
The plum is taken over and faced upward but to the limit.
It is firm to give to claim one present that come late she for plum to receive the next day, she say this all one’s life the first time accept present of boy, getting excited one fog ink fuzzy eyes of her.
Firm and is scolded severely by his father, because a neighbour tells his father, he and a girl have a meal. Firm not to defend oneself all the same, such as a sheep allowing oneself to be trampled upon, but in his ancient measure of length, equal to 8 cun, have already buried a seed resisted.
That day, to the firm house to reach May, he admitted, the family of the plum was very poor, it was a house at the beginning of liberation that lived in, mother has not worked, father is an old cleaner been all one’s life. The plum has three brother and sister, the eldest brother has already got married, the little sister still still reads junior middle school, support the family and support the family by only some salaries of her father. Just because of this reason, Mei Cai has insisted on sewing learning to look for the work to be done. Firm to say he admire plum very much, plum afford to touch on lightly.
Mother of plum to firm to welcome very much, move stool pour the tea also, pass cigarette. Firm to say, smoke, mother of plum think brand to be bad, busy with, look through, come out, wrap up, know how long ’s ” Bai Sha ” does it put on keeping drawer ,Firm to can know her wrong Italy, ” I am still a student, did not smoke ” . Mother of the plum has smiled, she thinks there are really too few young men not nowadays smoking, including student, it is said five or six pieces of ” good ” in succession that unexpectedly Word.
At this moment, comes for a period of time and walks outside, extremely slow. It is that her father comes back, goes to meet that the plum is said. Firm but been followed too. What kind of person is that one, win weak body, back of Lou, seem, blow a gust of wind can blow their off slightly. The plum mixes her father, it is firm to point to, ” the father, this is that my friend is firm ” ,It is the firm busy should not at the time of people call by every one “ The uncle ” . He provoke eyelid think firm to at one glance, it seems that it is sad and angry to lead, stare at his daughter at one glance later, the step of accelerating has been walked into the room to pluck the arm.
Firm feel very awkward, and the plum and her mother are more uneasy, tears of the plums have been all oozed out.
Part on bad term.
But still in a couple of days, firm that the plum has been found shedding tears. Her father suffered from cancer, had already reached later period originally. She house have money manage, fall into debt more than 2,000 already.
It is dark to believe in, move deeply plum again to be firm, his face very deep, it is deep as lead, there is a kind of only fortitude that Gao Cangjian makes it and sink high.
He is thinking how to help plums.
The plum has already cried for to run away.
The most showy place in the campus is stuck in the sad and gentle proposal of a word, the inscription of the proposal is firm name and a small and weak girl.
It is brimful of tears to lift in the campus for a period of time and contribute money: The students of the lower grade have broken the storage tank into pieces, the students of grade of the middle age have pushed out of the pocket money, the friend of the high grade has taken out the living cost; The postcard of letter of appreciation, such as pouring in like snowflakes, teacher, one of passerby in the know and parents of student so that fellow workers propose, how many hearts are affected.
Receive and contribute money and count more than 1,400 yuan together. As he hands this sum of money to Mei Shi, the plum is brimful of tears, the chirp of chirp has cried for as child.
Cancer still hopeless case after all, who haunt strength save one life of people that cancer snarl.
It is very sad and dreary, the wind is very wretched, the air is very depressing, the cloud is dull too. Whom plum twine first dark yarn, two as heart son swollen.
” my father has died “
“Oh? ! ” Which hour firm and shocked, “? “
” Bin appeared the day before yesterday, today “
“Why not tell me? ” Firm sight is very majestic.
“I’m afraid to stop over your word is practised. “
Silence, five minutes, confront each other, such as five centuries.
Firm not to cry, is watching plums attentively only with a kind of miserable sight, for a long time. The plum kneads the angle of clothing with one’s head low, the shoulder twitches lightly and lightly, the head trembles bit by bit too.
Firm to think her to be too modest to it’s a pity the protection in dire need of people too while being weak while being too delicate.
” whether I father say you were a good person, he says that is unfair to you when being extremely” ,Half a day, Mei Cai spoke a word.
” oh” ,Seem not to think that the accident is got.
“He says it was not good to you in the past, you mustn’t hate him, he was good for me, OK? ” Firm that the plum lifts the tearful eyes and sees, in the tears except that the grief is begging.
Vibrations, bow hair like firm whole body sting bee.
“I have not originally hated him! “
Firm to buy and defend a wreath, has knocked three loud heads in front of reaching her father’s tomb under the leadership of plum.
He seems to settle a wish, very tired, want to sleep, can not fall asleep really.
” the setting sun is good limitlessly “ ,It is invited to come to the park his at one dusk that firm again, it is Maier.
The plum is early there. She extremely Qian in today, one getting white skirt of band, sets of one timely body shirt very, the hairdo blows very uniquly too, there is fragrant one share far away.
” you dress up really beautifully today “ ,Firm first sentence which has seen the plum.
” true “ ,Red face flies once smiling in the plum.
Two people walk to the park depths. The trees flowers and plants put on one layer rose, as if the crying of the bird turns clear, it has dense profound meaning that in pairs or or embrace the waist or my my feeling of purt purt of lover snuggling up to it shoulder to shoulder. Firm to play, revitalize very good, say this like one unsurpassed poem, say ancient should until ” whether the setting sun limitlessly kind ” really Add one sentence behind “ But near dusk “ . I wonder why plum seldom speaks today, seem unusual and bashful, always with one’s head low, strike up a conversation with several sentences too once in a while and ask to be firm to dance that day compared with she, as far apart as heaven and earth.
The setting sun contract, enter in chink of high building finally, it late, plum look sidelong at stride of talk a dense one firm exactly subconsciously.
Firm to see plum wish to speak but not to do so on a second thought, a bit strange, it is bold and resolute always for plum not to speak.
“Is it busy to let me come today? “
“ “Plum look up, watch firm at one glance, sight full of one unusual excited, mouth skin did not speak no after working up.
” have words and say, why the muttering and mumbling one “
“I Yes, I can make friends with you? ” May speak quickly suddenly, firm some make no adequate defense. Several red rosy clouds reflect the face of the plum redder.
” actually we were friends “ Firm and a bit confused.
“No, I say that can be with you “
The plum has killed the thread of a conversation, she finds that firm that is looking at her with a kind of majesty and sight.
It was understood at last that firm” Friend ” Intensions real,very the calm,last plum with kinds of strange sight he,for a long time, there is a this clock totally, pitiful in sight, disappointed, stern, for a long time, he has said:
“The plum, you let me down very much. However, we are still friends, friend, do you understand? “
Walk outside the park in big strides after finishing saying.
The plum is standing, helplessly look firm and walk, the brain has been already dull at this moment, she seems to clearly see one that jabs because of carelessness by oneself is not ripe youthful beans and broken on one’s own pit of the stomach ruthlessly. Suddenly, if the tears breached a dyke the flood welled up, blood red and blood red, every one, every one, such as the familiar and rotten youthful beans